| im no sell out - the josh polito story |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|03:54 pm] |
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anna, and well i guess everyone has been right all along. fuck this stupid drama bullshit. and before ramsays or dewey or whoever makes their comment, yes i know its my fault, nething that im pissed about is because of me and things that other ppl are pissed about are because of me to. so ive taken what ppl said, and here are my steps to getting out of this bullshit
step 1 - get rid of this fucker. this is my last post and im just getting rid of this fucker becuase whatever i say i get in trouble for.
step 2 - get over it, as said by caitlin o'kelly
get over the fact alex will never wanna be friends again, i just gotta give up, stop trying and stop complaining about it and move on.
get over the fact that alot of things arent gunna go my way, and that no one cares how i feel about it, so i just shouldnt talk about it
step 3 - focus more on the ppl who make me happy.
step 4 - well there really isnt a defined step 4.... pretty much, just dont talk to ppl if u feeling down about something, unless its nick mikhaili... becuase if we didnt have that, chem would be pretty terrible.
so, ill talk to everybody sooon.... just not on this... and hopefully maybe things can change.
ps. im not reading the comments either so dont bother |
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| the aftermath |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|01:08 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | thursday | ] |
if ne one decides to not go to matts new years, plz come here, i really dont wanna be by myself |
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| rob get down here..... it involves u and shots |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|07:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | music |
| | a static lullaby | ] |
i finally found out y my dad doesnt want me to drink vodka. my aunt was asking us what our favorite drinks were, and then me and chris started telling stories, and then my dad stepped in with his vodka experience. so he said hell buy me beer for new years just so i dont drink vodka. no complaints.
hope u guys had a good one |
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| ill have a blue christmas, thats certain |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|09:03 am] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
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| | christmas music | ] |
apparently when u put other aead of yourself, and do things to make then happy, even though u really really really dont wanna do it, its supposed to make u feel good on the inside. who ever was the first person to say that must have been on so many drugs because it just doesnt fucking work that way. ur bestfriends is mad at u for something u do..... so u say hey, i value our friendship so ill do what he wants. and then after its all said and done, their still mad at u because of it even though u did what they wanted in the end even though it ws the last thing u did. and then u expect the other person to understand. i mean, u explain the situation to them over and over, of course its what we both wanted, but i didnt wanna lose friends over it. so alas, u break it off and expect everyone to understand. but what happens next? this person whop understands the situation ur in and realizs that we cant do neething decided its best to just not talk to u nemore and to not be friends because they like u too much. fuck that sucks there goes one of the greatest friends in ur life. but wait! theres more. at least ur best friend is happy with u right? absolutely not. still mad because u even considered doing it. weeeeeeeeeeee! now were just fucking having a grand ol time arent we. before neone says it ill say it myself. yes im an asshole to ppl and i probably deserve nothing better. but the one time i do whats best for everyone else, it pretty much fucks up everything and leaves me sitting here regretting every decision i had made.
but this is christmas, and stranger things have happened. new years is coming up and the new year is a great way to start over. who am i kidding, shell never really talk to me nemore, and hell always be mad about what could have happened. so i hope u guys are happy, and realize what i did was for the betterment of both of u. i guess i just have to realize that when u do something for others, its not about u being happy, its about their happiness, and from the looks of it, u guys are both happy with where we stand.
i love both of u guys more then everyone else i know combined. im gunna miss u alot, and i just hope u canf fovgive me man.
merry christmas guys, hope ur having a better time then me |
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| thoughts in my head |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|02:47 pm] |
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| |  gloomy | ] |
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| | moneen | ] |
i just fucking wish i was good enough for alex spinosa. thats all i want. honestly, i could get nothing for christmas and be perfectly happy if i could just have my friend back. its definitely gunna take a chrismukkah miracle for nething to happen, but u just gotta believe.
i guess u never really realize how much u love somebody, until their almost gone.
i really dont wanna be sad over the holidays, but fuck i miss her alot.
that is all |
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| sweeeet |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|03:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  undecided | ] |
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| | rocco | ] |
for the first time... i actually heard some of the thing sean devlin had to say during his presentation.
if only ppl listened to what he said :( |
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| note to self i miss u terribly |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|02:32 am] |
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| | SLEEPY! | ] |
probably the worst night of my life
but at the same time, im glad it happened, and ya. one day maybe itll go back to normal, i like to keep my hopes up. |
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| hey sergio |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|10:38 pm] |
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| | gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | catch 22 | ] |
<3 always
the original signature too
it hang on my wall. everyday i look at it wishing it could be true. |
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| welcome to the giv'er |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|06:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | soco | ] |
me and my sister cant decide so im opening it up to the public......
who would win
an unmovable object
or
an unstoppable force
all opinions are welcome |
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| charred fields of snow |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|02:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | a static lullaby | ] |
yea rob won $200!
yea robs excited for the next four days, but deep down he know its just gunna be the same. |
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| fell into the depths of a broken heart again |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|12:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
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| | it dies today | ] |
just played funky monkey for over an hour with my sister. what a great game.
i think tonight im gunna stay home and play in my dad $50 poker game, itll be sweet.... plus this way i can see if i win my draw for 20 bottles of alcohol.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet |
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| its a shame ur not allowed to talk to strangers |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|04:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | milo | ] |
this weekend looks like its gunna suck.... o well.... holidays are coming up. wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
the giver awaits. |
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| my heart was racing like a sprinter, who tripped and fell |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|09:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | starting line | ] |
good part of my day
kyle, the guy im pretty sure is gay from work, told me my hair looked cute.... it made me laugh.
the rest of my day consisted of ppl telling me i wasnt good enough, and other bad things.
i think im guuna do good on geometry test.... kinda optimistic
the starting line = makes my day complete |
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| i held your hand, and sat their knowing, that we'd make it through |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|08:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  satisfied | ] |
| [ | music |
| | box car racer | ] |
signs the world is coming to an end:
1) parents didnt care at all about saturday
2) probably the first weekend ever that wont be spent at my house
3) got 90% on my last 2 geometry quizes
4) got 91% on english seminar (beat alex and brenden :))
5) 80% on demand essay (thought i might fail)
6) a girl like me.... im very afraid
7) alex spinosa not only came over, but gave me a hug, its been awhile
yea, scary times
im pretty pumped about going to bahamas. me and my couisn decided to call our room "the give'r" because for the enitre week, were just gunna give'r. hahahahaha so pumped
everything is just so sweet right now. everything, or pretty much everything, that has pissed me off in the last month, had pretty much been fixed. at school, i seem to be talking to ppl that have always been around, but i never really was friends with, and the alex's both kinda talk to me again, and yea.... woooooooo!
nick is a cry boy :P |
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| guys, whats a montage? |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|11:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  enthralled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bleed the dream | ] |
ok so this morning i was really scared to go upstairs after my dad seeing louie wandering the house, finding ppl passed out on the couch, alcohol everywhere, and so on and so forth. so i walk in to the kitchen and it goes something liek this
mom: so looks like u raided my liquor cabinet laat night.
rob: just me... but i think u finished up on the night, found some bottles lying around.
mom: no one drove right?
rob: thats why ppl just left now
mom: good
dad: what the hell was wrong with louie. ive never seen someone so paranoid. blah blah blah (continues to make fun of louie for about 5 mins)
rob: yea we were all pretty plastered
mom: thats what u get for drinking vodka
dad: are u dumb, thats what they wanted to do
mom: dont call me dumb, leaves kitchen
dad: meh, did u clean up
rob: yes
dad: well im going to shovel.... starts laughing at louie again as he leaves.
at this point i have to sit down becuase im so afraid that the aliens that abducted my parents are coming for me now too.
the moral of the story is..... sometimes ur parents dont care if u steal thier booze and get drunk.... so take the risk and do it :) |
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| the weekend |
[Dec. 10th, 2005|06:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the mars volta | ] |
rob is one happy camper...... one very happy camper
i fucking love it |
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| need u back |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|01:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | death cab | ] |
fucking english
i fucking hate it... im gunna fail that class. i have no one to go with cuz alex was the only person i knew in that class, so now im gunna have to do it by myself, and probably fail, which doesnt help my 74% that i have rigth now. fucking english |
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| never disgrace him |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|10:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | coheed | ] |
chichi 1 1/4 oz. Vodka
Splash of Cream of coconut
Splash of Pineapple juice
Dash of Cream or Half & Half
Fresh Pineapple
Maraschino cherry
Whipped Cream (optional)
good ol chichi. keep doing ur thing man.
ps. new years.... were drinkin chichi |
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