cow_man2000

im no sell out - the josh polito story

2005-12-26T21:06:55Z

anna, and well i guess everyone has been right all along. fuck this stupid drama bullshit. and before ramsays or dewey or whoever makes their comment, yes i know its my fault, nething that im pissed about is because of me and things that other ppl are pissed about are because of me to. so ive taken what ppl said, and here are my steps to getting out of this bullshit
step 1 - get rid of this fucker. this is my last post and im just getting rid of this fucker becuase whatever i say i get in trouble for.
step 2 - get over it, as said by caitlin o'kelly
get over the fact alex will never wanna be friends again, i just gotta give up, stop trying and stop complaining about it and move on.
get over the fact that alot of things arent gunna go my way, and that no one cares how i feel about it, so i just shouldnt talk about it
step 3 - focus more on the ppl who make me happy.
step 4 - well there really isnt a defined step 4.... pretty much, just dont talk to ppl if u feeling down about something, unless its nick mikhaili... becuase if we didnt have that, chem would be pretty terrible.
so, ill talk to everybody sooon.... just not on this... and hopefully maybe things can change.

ps. im not reading the comments either so dont bother

the aftermath

2005-12-26T18:15:22Z

if ne one decides to not go to matts new years, plz come here, i really dont wanna be by myself

rob get down here..... it involves u and shots

2005-12-26T00:50:03Z

i finally found out y my dad doesnt want me to drink vodka. my aunt was asking us what our favorite drinks were, and then me and chris started telling stories, and then my dad stepped in with his vodka experience. so he said hell buy me beer for new years just so i dont drink vodka. no complaints.
hope u guys had a good one

i lost my voice, in the fire

2005-12-25T17:41:03Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS!

im sorry, ill shut up now :(

ill have a blue christmas, thats certain

2005-12-24T14:17:43Z

apparently when u put other aead of yourself, and do things to make then happy, even though u really really really dont wanna do it, its supposed to make u feel good on the inside. who ever was the first person to say that must have been on so many drugs because it just doesnt fucking work that way. ur bestfriends is mad at u for something u do..... so u say hey, i value our friendship so ill do what he wants. and then after its all said and done, their still mad at u because of it even though u did what they wanted in the end even though it ws the last thing u did. and then u expect the other person to understand. i mean, u explain the situation to them over and over, of course its what we both wanted, but i didnt wanna lose friends over it. so alas, u break it off and expect everyone to understand. but what happens next? this person whop understands the situation ur in and realizs that we cant do neething decided its best to just not talk to u nemore and to not be friends because they like u too much. fuck that sucks there goes one of the greatest friends in ur life. but wait! theres more. at least ur best friend is happy with u right? absolutely not. still mad because u even considered doing it. weeeeeeeeeeee! now were just fucking having a grand ol time arent we. before neone says it ill say it myself. yes im an asshole to ppl and i probably deserve nothing better. but the one time i do whats best for everyone else, it pretty much fucks up everything and leaves me sitting here regretting every decision i had made.
but this is christmas, and stranger things have happened. new years is coming up and the new year is a great way to start over. who am i kidding, shell never really talk to me nemore, and hell always be mad about what could have happened. so i hope u guys are happy, and realize what i did was for the betterment of both of u. i guess i just have to realize that when u do something for others, its not about u being happy, its about their happiness, and from the looks of it, u guys are both happy with where we stand.
i love both of u guys more then everyone else i know combined. im gunna miss u alot, and i just hope u canf fovgive me man.
merry christmas guys, hope ur having a better time then me

thoughts in my head

2005-12-23T20:00:01Z

i just fucking wish i was good enough for alex spinosa. thats all i want. honestly, i could get nothing for christmas and be perfectly happy if i could just have my friend back. its definitely gunna take a chrismukkah miracle for nething to happen, but u just gotta believe.
i guess u never really realize how much u love somebody, until their almost gone.
i really dont wanna be sad over the holidays, but fuck i miss her alot.
that is all

sweeeet

2005-12-22T20:18:23Z

for the first time... i actually heard some of the thing sean devlin had to say during his presentation.
if only ppl listened to what he said :(

note to self i miss u terribly

2005-12-22T07:34:26Z

probably the worst night of my life

but at the same time, im glad it happened, and ya. one day maybe itll go back to normal, i like to keep my hopes up.

hey sergio

2005-12-19T03:44:39Z

<3 always

the original signature too

it hang on my wall. everyday i look at it wishing it could be true.

welcome to the giv'er

2005-12-18T23:16:51Z

me and my sister cant decide so im opening it up to the public......
who would win
an unmovable object
or
an unstoppable force

all opinions are welcome

charred fields of snow

2005-12-18T07:19:51Z

yea rob won $200!

yea robs excited for the next four days, but deep down he know its just gunna be the same.

fell into the depths of a broken heart again

2005-12-17T17:13:15Z

just played funky monkey for over an hour with my sister. what a great game.

i think tonight im gunna stay home and play in my dad $50 poker game, itll be sweet.... plus this way i can see if i win my draw for 20 bottles of alcohol.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

its a shame ur not allowed to talk to strangers

2005-12-16T21:39:42Z

this weekend looks like its gunna suck.... o well.... holidays are coming up. wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

the giver awaits.

my heart was racing like a sprinter, who tripped and fell

2005-12-15T02:30:53Z

good part of my day
kyle, the guy im pretty sure is gay from work, told me my hair looked cute.... it made me laugh.

the rest of my day consisted of ppl telling me i wasnt good enough, and other bad things.

i think im guuna do good on geometry test.... kinda optimistic

the starting line = makes my day complete

i held your hand, and sat their knowing, that we'd make it through

2005-12-13T02:09:51Z

signs the world is coming to an end:
1) parents didnt care at all about saturday
2) probably the first weekend ever that wont be spent at my house
3) got 90% on my last 2 geometry quizes
4) got 91% on english seminar (beat alex and brenden :))
5) 80% on demand essay (thought i might fail)
6) a girl like me.... im very afraid
7) alex spinosa not only came over, but gave me a hug, its been awhile

yea, scary times

im pretty pumped about going to bahamas. me and my couisn decided to call our room "the give'r" because for the enitre week, were just gunna give'r. hahahahaha so pumped

everything is just so sweet right now. everything, or pretty much everything, that has pissed me off in the last month, had pretty much been fixed. at school, i seem to be talking to ppl that have always been around, but i never really was friends with, and the alex's both kinda talk to me again, and yea.... woooooooo!

nick is a cry boy :P

guys, whats a montage?

2005-12-11T16:58:37Z

ok so this morning i was really scared to go upstairs after my dad seeing louie wandering the house, finding ppl passed out on the couch, alcohol everywhere, and so on and so forth. so i walk in to the kitchen and it goes something liek this

mom: so looks like u raided my liquor cabinet laat night.
rob: just me... but i think u finished up on the night, found some bottles lying around.
mom: no one drove right?
rob: thats why ppl just left now
mom: good
dad: what the hell was wrong with louie. ive never seen someone so paranoid. blah blah blah (continues to make fun of louie for about 5 mins)
rob: yea we were all pretty plastered
mom: thats what u get for drinking vodka
dad: are u dumb, thats what they wanted to do
mom: dont call me dumb, leaves kitchen
dad: meh, did u clean up
rob: yes
dad: well im going to shovel.... starts laughing at louie again as he leaves.

at this point i have to sit down becuase im so afraid that the aliens that abducted my parents are coming for me now too.

the moral of the story is..... sometimes ur parents dont care if u steal thier booze and get drunk.... so take the risk and do it :)

the weekend

2005-12-10T23:04:48Z

rob is one happy camper...... one very happy camper

i fucking love it

need u back

2005-12-07T18:18:19Z

fucking english
i fucking hate it... im gunna fail that class. i have no one to go with cuz alex was the only person i knew in that class, so now im gunna have to do it by myself, and probably fail, which doesnt help my 74% that i have rigth now. fucking english

1 back.... 1 to go

2005-12-07T04:00:51Z

We could wait for the wind to blow
Or give me a look so cold...It gives me chills
And ends the summer war
My eyes roll
Around and over and again
Falling down, dizzy with sun stroke
I'll be there
And I'll try to identify, try to look through the gray skies in your eyes..
And pick up everything you left behind
Cross your fingers, and pray for winter
I'll be there
Painting the town your favorite color.
Guess I'll call or see you around....yeah
Guess I'll call or see you around.
Guess I'll call or see you around....yeah
Guess I'll call or see you around.
I'll call, or see you around....yeah
I'll call, or see you around.
I'll call, or see you around....yeah
I'll call, or see you around.

...painting the town your favorite color.

ah the starting line..... how amazing u are.

talking to caitlin, and having my mom bug me about it everyday has made me realize that, university is coming up. i was never really one of those ppl who couldnt wait to go, and get out to the house and be on their own.... but i think my mind has changed. i just wanna get the fuck out of here. go out to a new world, meet new people and have new experience. dont get me wrong, of course i want to stay in touch with many ppl.... but fuck there so much i just wanna get away from. fuck cardinal carter, fuck high school, these are great times, but i mean, just think of how awesome it must be. a chance to start over fresh with new people. forget about old problems. fuck all the people who went out of their way to make u miserable, fuck it all.

but u gotta focus on the present right. well thats y im trying to make ends meet with pretty much all things right now. im trying to be nicer to those i wasnt nice to before. im trying to talk to people whom i havent talked to for a long time because, like rich said, what if something happened to them, what if they got ill or ingured in some way shape of form. how would u feel then? why hold stupid grudges, lifes to short for that. many of u guys have pointed out to me more then often everything that is wrong with me. and right now im working on it... trying to be that better person i guess. and u know what, so far so good. in most cases i feel good about it. but then again, there are some things that no matter how hard i try just wont work, but whatever its just $5.

go ahead and comment about how i should stop being "emo" and posting what im thinking on here. i dont really care. i kinda enjoy just writing down what comes into my head. to be honest, i dont really even remember most of what i wrote, its just nice to let it out.

never disgrace him

2005-12-06T03:47:02Z

chichi 1 1/4 oz. Vodka
Splash of Cream of coconut
Splash of Pineapple juice
Dash of Cream or Half & Half
Fresh Pineapple
Maraschino cherry
Whipped Cream (optional)
good ol chichi. keep doing ur thing man.

ps. new years.... were drinkin chichi

preparing to get owned

2005-12-04T19:46:03Z

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gin is bad

2005-12-04T06:33:54Z

ya in a ga mood.
yea ga music
yea god weekend
yea god night. i fucking love my dad. he even came downstairs... but he doesnt care, what a guy. thanks to everyone who came over today. friggin shweet night. i love u guys so much.
i apologize to jim harrison. i thought u were bluffin man, at best i thought u had a 5 and my kicker would beat urs :( at least i broguht good luck for online poker. and the donut :) love you man.
i love the weekend! woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

yea i got to see nick mikhaili tonight!

what if something happened to her 2morrow? then what would u be saying?

2005-12-03T06:09:25Z

good times today
spent the day with rich which was a blast, hes a tres awesome guy and i just love talking with him.
then erica's b-day. was good stuff..... so of the random sacred were scary because they were scary but all the normals were sweet as usual. see u guys 2morrow... or i guess 2nite :)
ive decided nick is dead. last weekend dead. this weekend, ditching us again. *tear* i miss u man.

i tried my best... but trying never gets u newhere

2005-12-01T03:37:15Z

well... i didnt think it was that terrible.... but i speak for myself.
but dont worry.... once more in a week or 2.... and then i guess for school things.... and yea, then u dont have to come over nemore

i just want the fucking weekend

OMG HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERICA!!!!!!!! i wanted to call u today but i totally completly forgot! ahhhhhh sorry happpy birthday

dont want this week to end

2005-11-30T01:11:05Z

work today was pretty sweet. as soon as i got their i saw my lover. so we chilled outside for a bit and then i was late but james didnt care cuz he was mad being angry about everything else. trained again.... so pretty much i told them to go on screen and i sat in drive thru... james and jeff kept kicking me out... but im persistant. so pretty much, i stood there talking to lindsay.... watched james have mental breakdowns. sara came in for a bit and i havent seen her in so long so i talked to her for a bit. and then in no time i was off. me and lindsay chilled for a bit after that and now im here. doing chem lab.
i dont think ppl say thank you enough, or tell people that their appreciative of the effort they put forth. im not saying im deserving of thanks... or that i say it all the time. but when someone says good job after u show them something i worked hard on, it feels good. and i just think all ppl should get more recognition for things they do.
i guess this is how life works. one week, everything just sucks, and u hate life, but u know... just hang in there becuase it only gets better, and then the next week ur having a great time. i mean last week i thought the whole world was against me.... but now... im having a great fucking time. i love the ppl i work with more then words, all my friends are fucking amazing, school isnt overly terrible now a days, and the fucking weekends are so good. like this weekend i thought i would have nothing to do... but just today everyone wants to do stuff and im gunna be so busy and its gunna be sweet. yup, things are looking good for rob buchner right now.